Pondering ideas outside ones own grasp of control... Why... Asking why... Not the impossible sort of why questions, more like the unattainable why questions... However, first, lets start with the possibly attainable why question: Why do the homeless ages 50+ go on living? Why? I think I might interview one to find out. I don't think i need to explain why such a question should be so intriguing... Certainly having this question answered would bring some sort of... Understanding of my own life...
Buddhism has raised more questions than it has answered... My desire to follow such beliefs from a philosophical point of view still strong... If the only way for the next true Buddha is for one to reach enlightenment in amongst pure ignorance of the belief then why go on teaching the way of Buddhism? Certainly if the world took in the philosophy of Buddhism as I do the world would be a better place but that will never happen, not in my life time, not in the lifetimes of generations beyond me, perhaps. So, what hopes does such a group of believers hold onto that the teachings of Buddhism should be maintained at all? Certainly it might fit well with many this lifestyle of peace and love of all beings, but few achieve being able to leave behind the prison of the 5 senses, and none that are known achieve that of arhatship or buddhahood. So why? Why all this time in seeing society crumble in this modern age do they seek to preserve it? Such teachings will never overcome the aggressive christian or muslim...
The NWO, the Illuminati, the Freemasons... Who is the enemy... I don't mean, who out of these three groups... I mean who is really the enemy... Hard to understand where I am coming from with such a question... It should be obvious... A population of no greater than 500,000... If only 500,000, why? Was the human race meant to be so doomed? Is it proper? Is there going to be control? 500,000... 490,000 slaves and 10,000 tyrants? It's so hard to put the thoughts related to this topic to words... Is it that with 500,000... No... I don't think I could assert anything without truly knowing... One of the whys that will be outside of my current grasp...
so bold though... so much symbolism or blatant messages in film, advertisement... ill just go ahead and place it under one umbrella... media. its like the film From Hell... here we have the freemasons painted blatantly as the antagonists... why? is it to implant the idea that the freemasons are indeed the evil secret community many think that it is, or is it to install that believing such things is illegitimate? regardless hollywood and the media are transfixed on this evil. i cant turn on the tv and not see their schemes at work, even magazines and favorite websites seem to spread this cancer. or is it a message to make it appear that the nwo is in such control when in reality it is not. a mind game in order to dominate the unsuspecting minds of those who witness it consciously... to manipulate the consciousness in order to bring in this unhappy reality... but which is it...
the whole process to think about such things is tiring... but why... why am i so exhausted from all this... can't i be happy? stress and suffer free? i think i gain understanding but i don't... more confusion...
why for so long have i longed for japan... i am less likely to be accepted by the people there than here in my own country... a journey to find myself? so strange now... but maybe it could become a journey to leave the 'self'... makes sense... never belonged to any niche or group growing up... dont necessarily desire to be a hermit... why should i know... why should i ask... why? why exist at age 50+ living on the streets? why endure suffering for generations? there must be something in the water... lol
Buddhism has raised more questions than it has answered... My desire to follow such beliefs from a philosophical point of view still strong... If the only way for the next true Buddha is for one to reach enlightenment in amongst pure ignorance of the belief then why go on teaching the way of Buddhism? Certainly if the world took in the philosophy of Buddhism as I do the world would be a better place but that will never happen, not in my life time, not in the lifetimes of generations beyond me, perhaps. So, what hopes does such a group of believers hold onto that the teachings of Buddhism should be maintained at all? Certainly it might fit well with many this lifestyle of peace and love of all beings, but few achieve being able to leave behind the prison of the 5 senses, and none that are known achieve that of arhatship or buddhahood. So why? Why all this time in seeing society crumble in this modern age do they seek to preserve it? Such teachings will never overcome the aggressive christian or muslim...
The NWO, the Illuminati, the Freemasons... Who is the enemy... I don't mean, who out of these three groups... I mean who is really the enemy... Hard to understand where I am coming from with such a question... It should be obvious... A population of no greater than 500,000... If only 500,000, why? Was the human race meant to be so doomed? Is it proper? Is there going to be control? 500,000... 490,000 slaves and 10,000 tyrants? It's so hard to put the thoughts related to this topic to words... Is it that with 500,000... No... I don't think I could assert anything without truly knowing... One of the whys that will be outside of my current grasp...
so bold though... so much symbolism or blatant messages in film, advertisement... ill just go ahead and place it under one umbrella... media. its like the film From Hell... here we have the freemasons painted blatantly as the antagonists... why? is it to implant the idea that the freemasons are indeed the evil secret community many think that it is, or is it to install that believing such things is illegitimate? regardless hollywood and the media are transfixed on this evil. i cant turn on the tv and not see their schemes at work, even magazines and favorite websites seem to spread this cancer. or is it a message to make it appear that the nwo is in such control when in reality it is not. a mind game in order to dominate the unsuspecting minds of those who witness it consciously... to manipulate the consciousness in order to bring in this unhappy reality... but which is it...
the whole process to think about such things is tiring... but why... why am i so exhausted from all this... can't i be happy? stress and suffer free? i think i gain understanding but i don't... more confusion...
why for so long have i longed for japan... i am less likely to be accepted by the people there than here in my own country... a journey to find myself? so strange now... but maybe it could become a journey to leave the 'self'... makes sense... never belonged to any niche or group growing up... dont necessarily desire to be a hermit... why should i know... why should i ask... why? why exist at age 50+ living on the streets? why endure suffering for generations? there must be something in the water... lol
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